Shawna – On My Weigh – Gains Happen Fast
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This week, I don’t have anything really new to talk about. I mean, all I ever really talk about is my workouts. This week, I dunno…I feel like I just need to vent. Because I need to tell you…this losing weight and getting healthy…some days it seems like it’s over-friggen-rated.
Why am I talking like this, you may be asking me. Because I was doing sooooooo well. Well, here’s the thing, the last time you heard from me, I mentioned that maybe this blog would find me in the 250s but sadly I am not. So let’s start at the beginning…well, just from the beginning of last blog lolol
So I went camping the weekend of July 6-8. I didn’t stay on plan, but I also didn’t pig out. Or maybe I did. I’ll just break it down so that maybe someone can say “yes Shawna, you actually DID pig out” Okay so…Friday night we arrived. Supper was hot dogs. I had 2. Nothing on the side. Just 2 hotdogs. Then later by the campfire I had 2 s’mores. We made them just with those digestive cookies with one side that has chocolate on it. So yes, I had a nice camping treat, but I don’t feel like 2 of them was over doing it.
Next day, Saturday, for breakfast I had 3 scrambled eggs and 3 slices of bacon. Lunch was smokies…no bun…I had 2. Plus approximately 1/4 cup each of potato salad and macaroni salad. And some cheese. Supper I had steak (this, I WILL admit was a huuuuuge steak), 1 piece of corn on the cob, 1 baked potato. For evening snacks I had some chips. I opened one big bag, and gave myself a small bowl…saved the chips for the next day. By the fire that night, we had more s’mores. I had 2 again. We also had a little bit of candy from the candy store.
Next morning, Sunday, I had 2 eggs, 4 slices of bacon and approximately 1/4 cup of shredded hashbrowns. Mighta been slightly more, but it was no more than 1/2 cup…I have gotten a bit good at knowing amounts from weighing and measuring everything. For lunch, I actually can’t even remember what the heck I had but since I didn’t bring anything for meat, other than smokies, hot dogs and steak, I THINK I had more smokies. No bun again. 2 of them. And I had potato salad and macaroni salad again. Not alot, because I only brought the smallest container that you can get at the store…and I shared it with 2 other people. Supper I had 2 hot dogs and some cheese.
Drinking…I had water and diet coke.
So why did I share all of this with you? Because here’s the thing…on Friday, before heading out of town, I had weigh in at weight watchers, and I was 268.4 and just for fun, I weighed myself Monday morning when I was back from camping because I was curious what that weekend “cost me” pound wise. The scale read 276. What the… 8 pounds in one weekend??? I knew it wasn’t all fat gain and that some of it was sodium and likely a bit of water retention. No biggie…I figured I would lose it in a few days once my system got back on track and once I drank tons of water to flush it all out. Because usually when I have a bad food day, or weekend, it comes off in a few days. Well, not this time…I weighed myself every couple days…ya ya ya…STOP OBSESSING ABOUT THE SCALE. But I can’t help it. Anyway, it took me until today, when I weighed in at weight watchers to get back down. Today I am back to 267.4.
And this is where I am left to wonder about weightloss. I am human. I WILL go camping and I WILL eat smokies, and chips and s’mores. I just don’t get how it can affect the body THAT DRASTICALLY. I need to be able to enjoy myself without always worrying that I’m going to put on 8 pounds in 2 freaking days! Some people will say “was it worth it?” or “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels” but you know what…screw them. Realistically I’m not going to stop eating junk food. I don’t eat it as much as I use to, that’s for sure. I got to 208 because I was eating junk almost daily. Now, I eat junk maybe once a week…not even that some weeks. I haven’t eaten junk food since that camping weekend. Oh, I lied…I went to ribfest with the husband between the camping trip and this weekend.
So as you can see, I am just having a whole lot of frustrations lately because some days, I just want to say fuck it, and go eat a whole fucking pizza because I am human and sometimes, I just want a whole fucking pizza. Okay, I won’t get a pizza…I will have horrible heartburn lol But you get my drift.
The next few weeks, I am hoping to see a huge improvement on the scale, because my shifts are all done be 1:30 in the afternoon, so while I WILL be waking up stupid early, at least being done that early will give me time to go to the gym after work and not worry about having to have dinner at 8 PM.
Well, if you made it this far, thank you for listening. Sometimes all we need on this journey is to just vent a little bit. And I know I can’t be the only one on this journey I call weightloss who has these thoughts…
Well until next time…I am going to the healthiest me I can be.