Shawna – On My Weigh – Mental Struggles
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Hello my faithful followers. So we decided to just do this blog every two weeks, instead of weekly. We shall see how that goes. Lol
Lots has happened. I think hahahaha. The first thing that happened is I got the green light from my physio therapist to resume running and biking!!! That made me super happy. Especially because my next triathlon is August 12 and I want to start training. My 16 year old is joining me this year so I’m excited about that. It’s the St. Albert triathlon and it’s my favourite one to do. I’m not crazy about the hills, but the rest of it is pretty fun. And I love that I’m doing it with my daughter.
Work outs are going ok. I’m seeing my personal trainer once a week still. I have added the odd second one with him. My daughter has even joined me a couple times. Which has been really fun. I love including her in my workouts. I think she’s enjoying them as well.
Weight watchers is going well. I did have a small gain this week of 1.6 pounds but I’m still below the 270s, which is where I want to be. Well not forever but I mean I don’t want to get back into the 270s ever ever ever again.
So the triathlon I am training for is just a Try-it distance. So I’m swimming 250 metres, biking 10 km and running 2.5 km. So I have done the swimming and biking practice already. I was able to do my 250 metres in about 9 minutes. So that was great! My plan is to beat last year’s times and at this weight as of today I am about 30 pounds lighter than last year. Might be 20…I would have to look in my journal that I have for keeping track of my triathlons but as I write this I am sitting in my sister’s camper at a camping resort. And well, I didn’t bring my triathlon journal with me lol. So ya, if I can be 30-40 pounds lighter this year, then I think I have a good shot at beating my times!! It’s a great goal for me to go for. And my ultimate goal??? To do a full triathlon again. Yes…again. My first two years of triathlons I did the sprint distances. Then I gained weight and caused my body to not work in my favor.
I have to admit something though. The last few workouts I have been struggling with some negative mental thoughts. Some days I just feel like this isn’t worth it. Why is it that some weeks when I am 100% on plan, and working out a lot, I don’t lose much and some people who barely try, can lose 3 pounds in a week. I know…my hormone issues don’t help. But you know, it IS frustrating. To the point where I feel like crying during my workouts sometimes. I don’t want a magic pill, but I really do wish this was easier than it has been. Alot of my frustrations are also towards myself. I can’t believe I allowed myself to get to this point.
This current challenge I’m doing through Epicure is coming to a close. We have 2 weigh ins left. I know I won’t be winning this one. But that’s ok. I know I’m still lighter than when I started three months ago. The next one starts in September. And I look forward to it!!
Well, that’s all I really have to say for now. Maybe in my blog two weeks from now, I’ll be in the 250s. Realistically that IS possible. So we shall see.
Until then, stay healthy!